I'll start posting again...

But I'm warning you...I am planning a wedding and that is nearly all I think about. It is terrible...I can't stop getting random thoughts in my head like "Oh my god, we still don't have an officiant!" or "We should get those awesome toffee chocolate almonds for the favors!" or the ever popular "I wonder if craigslist has any dresses worth buying today..." (the latter one always hitting me when I should be doing some important number-crunching at work.)

I have come to realize that no matter what I do in life, anger will always be my most prominent feature. Everything about wedding planning makes me angry. I am really not girly, so I have anger at dresses, flowers, and all of the women who squeal and ask about my color schemes with all of those things. I hate mushy stuff, so I have short tempers with people that start tearing up at the thought of walking me down the aisle, being included in my "special day", and anyone suggesting that I look all grown up in a marshmallow suit. Oh yeah, and anyone who asks if I cried when Tom was down on one knee and definitely anyone who says that they cried in the same position. I hate being wasteful, so I especially have anger at people who think I should have a bridal shower for all of the gifts I don't need, the employees of any and all wedding industrial companies whose job it is to convince me I absolutely need a new set of crystal and china or $50/person plated dinners or a $1,000 dress or seat covers (because chairs are so ugly?!). ANGRY.

The day after I got engaged, I said that the most important things to me in a wedding are as follows:
1. Booze. Because weddings are generally boring.
2. Night time. Because I hate mornings and getting up early.
3. Family and Friends. Duh. Maybe that should have placed before booze...

But I am thrilled that I have love in my life, that I have loved ones to share in it, and that I have an excuse for being crafty (the only part I am enjoying is making the invitations and favors!) And I get a vacation after the it is over with! I think that anyone who really knows me knows that I am the happiest I've ever been right now, and that the anger at the presumed wedding traditions is just the pineapple skin.